I’m really good at telling other people to think positively. I’m also really good about thinking positively about what other people can do and achieve. When I ran the Maryland Half Marathon with my hubby, he told me around mile 11 that he couldn’t keep going because he was going to die (yes, he really said that). I was right there telling him he wouldn’t die and I knew he could finish strong. He told me to to just keep running while he took a break; clearly, he couldn’t handle all my positivity.
Usually my positive thinking about others is right on. Hubby did finish strong for the MD Half and he didn’t die. Unfortunately, my positive thinking isn’t always right. I thought Ashton and Demi really might make it, but I guess I was wrong about that one. Tear.
As I get ready to kick off my next round of marathon training the week after Thanksgiving, my positive thinking is wavering. For my past 2 marathons, I followed a fairly basic training plan. It helped me build the mileage and cover the distance, but it didn’t do anything to teach my slow legs to move faster. For the Rock ‘n Roll USA Marathon in March, I’m going to adopt a different training plan.
When I first chose this plan, I thought maybe I was aiming a little high. I told hubby about it and he teased me that I was basically saying I was going to “aim high and achieve low” since while I was telling him I was going to do it, I was already saying I wouldn’t be able to reach my goal. I’m so thankful he’s so supportive of me and believes in me when I don’t believe in myself. I will honestly be happy if I can take any time at all off my marathon PR, but I’m going to strive for something even better than that. My training plan is for a 4 hour marathon. Considering that my first two marathons were 4:57 and 4:54 respectively, this feels like a very ambitious goal for me. Even if it means I end up finishing in 4:15, 4:30 or 4:45, I’ll just be happy to see an improvement.
The plan includes hill runs, tempo runs, Yasso 800s (I’m scared just typing them into my schedule), runs with strides, and some very welcome “easy” runs. My longest run will be 22 miles and I will also do two 20 mile runs. Looking at what lies ahead in this plan terrifies me and excites me at the same time.
Here is my problem: I don’t think I can run a 4 hour marathon. Where is my positive thinking? If someone told me that they wanted to run a 4 hour marathon, I’d tell them they could do it. Why can’t I tell myself that?
Some people have expressed concern over whether or not they can complete all 100 miles for my Winter 100 Challenge and I have told every single one of them that I know that they can. Why can’t I believe in myself like I believe in everyone else?
If I keep telling myself I’m slow, I’m just going to stay slow. I have to start following my own advice and believing in what I can achieve.
How do you stay positive?